Weekly Photo Challenge: #Dawn

Dawn

I took this photo on one of the beautiful mornings I had taken Hallie to school. These days are long gone now as she’s been driving for a few years, but I can reminisce.

Good Vibrations

Top o’ the marnin to ya! (trying to sound Irish, with my probably 10% Irish blood).

Hope y’all are havin’ a lovely weekend (with my true southern twang).

Welcome to day 5 of the Meditation Challenge! How’s it working for you, so far? Are you finding a little peace? Is it easier than you thought it would be? Or is it driving you to INSANITY AND BEYOND?!

It seems I’ve gone GIF happy. I cannot stop myself. Is it the meditation that’s making you crazy? Or is it me?

Well, let’s get to it, shall we?

Oh, wait!

For those of you wondering about Hallie, she made it safely to Tennessee. She had a wonderful time catching up with her beloved friend and she left early this morning, heading home.

Miss that little love monkey but I’ve had a nice weekend getting my roots done (I don’t think I’ll ever embrace my grays so I try to keep it the dark blonde I had before the grays starting showing up), shopping with my mom (although she’s not been feeling great for the last week, poor babe). She’s better today, thankfully.

A beloved member of our family passed away yesterday – Aunt Sallie. She had not been well for some time. She was always a sweet and funny lady. Sleep well, Aunt Sallie (1928-2017). We love you, we’ll miss you and we’ll see you soon.

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Now, I suppose I’ll get to the meditation portion of today’s post –

At first, when I started meditating, I would lay on the couch, and at the time, I started meditation because I had just quit working for a devil of a woman I used to call my client. Working from home since around 2011, I’ve had various clients and sometimes more than one client. Well, she was the absolute worst. She made me physically sick. That’s bad stress and I could not contain my tears, my nerves were a wreck – shaking and stomach issues – I was so tired of letting this person continuously damage me physically, mentally, and emotionally, so I QUIT!!! I just could not deal. Now, I had over 20 years of working for attorneys, before starting to work from home, and they were perfect angels compared to her. That’s saying something!! I was so exhausted that when I tried meditating, I was out like a light. Less than 2 minutes and I was gone. That’s when I learned laying down during meditation was not a good thing.

Sometimes, I’d go sit in my tree swing – this canvas setup that has a footrest and I can lean back, put my arms on the armrests, put a drink in the cup holder, flip the headrest out of my way and just gaze upward at the tree. I have always LOVED trees. For me, trees and rain and mountains (nature) connect me more strongly to God than anything else. The tree is so strong and beautiful and resilient and loving. It shelters me. I feel like it’s holding me in its arms when I sit in that swing, as if my loving Father is holding me. I feel protected and safe.

I still sit in that swing a good bit to reconnect with that peace. It’s perfect. Absolutely perfect. And when I want an actual stay-awake meditation, I sit in my office chair, with my back supported and my head free. I have fallen asleep in my tree swing on many occasions.

More benefits from daily meditation:

      1. Whole brain synchronization – this occurs when the various parts of your brain begin to work together, resonating at the same frequencies and causing neural pathways to fire more rapidly. The left and right sides of your brain begin to work in concert with each other. Electrical activity and energy patterns in your brain become more widespread throughout the brain instead of remaining confined to certain areas. Your brain reaches extraordinary levels of performance.
      2. Quiets mind chatter.
      3. Stress less. Reduces stress or helps you to stress less.
      4. Spiritual awakening.It’s quite possible that you are now undergoing, or might soon undergo a “spiritual awakening”? Like a butterfly emerging from its cocoon, once your inner transformation to a higher level of consciousness is complete, likely benefits:• A bulletproof sense of inner peace.
        • True happiness, no matter the circumstances in your life.
        • Feeling at one with everyone & everything.
        • Unconditional love for all living beings.
        • Finding your true self and your true path.
        • A worry/stress/anxiety free natural existence.
        • A very fulfilled, meaningful life.
        • Deep healing of mind, body, and spirit.
        • A permanent higher shift in consciousness & understanding.

     

  1. Let me know how it’s working for you. It may take a few weeks before you reach any of these benefits. I actually did start to feel a shift with my first meditation, but probably due to an overwhelming need for peace at that moment, before I completely lost my everlivin’ mind, thanks to that biotch I worked for (trying to curb my language so I could be a WHOLE lot worse here – I’m developing better habits and one includes STOP cussing like a sailor).

At times, sitting there “trying” to meditate made me angry because I simply could not relax, plus the meditations I was listening to were poorly done – walking was recorded in the background, the person offering guidance either misspoke or the person editing the meditation did not listen to it and pasted parts together that did not match – and I kick myself for buying that stupid package. However, I did get a little out of it, so it’s fine. I just won’t buy anything else of hers. And why buy anything meditation related? There are so many free options out there, it doesn’t make sense to buy anything. Take it from me – Save your money. Do the free stuff.

If you don’t like the other mediations I’ve posted, here’s another. You keep thinking she’s gonna talk forever but she doesn’t, so stick with it. It lasts appr. 21 minutes.

Have a fab rest of your weekend. Let me know how the meditations are working for you.

Love and hugs,

-Carol xoxo

Living the Adventure to Completion

boots

Buried deep within the caves

The recesses of my mind

Taken there by worn tired weathered leather

And antique sheets wrapped with twine

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Past the echoes and whispers

Through the dark twisted figures

Evermore deeper still toward the dark

Torment and fear churn and shiver

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Not turning to whence I came

Facing the struggle and climb

Promise beckoning me adventure on

Completing the trek is mine

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Dry As A Bone

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And we’re back with Hump Day Haiku – what – week 3?  Here goes…

 

I wish it would rain

Land is as dry as a bone

Trees die a slow death

 

In other words, we are in dire need of some rain, ASAP!  Time to do the rain dance again.  C’mon, Hallie.

Y’all have a super duper day filled with nothing but awesomeness!  Happy hump day, guys!  *smooch*  xoxo

 

(Photo courtesy of Pinterest)

Winter

WinterIs a third one too many for the challenge?  If you zoom in, you can find a cardinal perched right there in the middle.  😉  “Winter” with a spot of red.

Winter Lawn

p5 - winter lawn 2And here’s another from 2012.  “Winter Lawn” for another entry into the Weather challenge.  Oh so wish it would snow again.  February is our last chance for it.  How I adore a winter wonderland and building snowman memories with my daughter.

Frosted Fingers

frosted fingers 02/12/2010 I realize it’s been a while since I participated in a photo challenge but felt it was high time I get back in the show. Some of you will remember this one before but others may not have seen it and feel it’s a good one for this week’s challenge of “Weather.”

This was taken in my back yard in 2012.  Hope you like it.  You may know I have a thing for trees.  I also have a thing for snow.  Absolutely LOVES it!  😉  At 25 degrees this cold winter morning, it feels like a nice chance for snow.  Just walked Buddy and the lawn met us with a blanket of ice crystals.  Lovely in the moonlight.

Trying to Enjoy the View

view  This was my view this afternoon while sitting in my front porch swing.  See the little patch on the ground past the shadow of the crepe myrtle?  A tree used to be in that spot.  A very large shady pecan tree that my grandpa planted there years and years ago.  In fact, that was one of my favorite climbing trees as a child.  We’d come visit here in the summer and my brother and I would climb that tree, among others.  I’d lay out in the sun and a squirrel that lived in that tree would come down and pay me a visit.

That tree held so many memories for me.  Good and bad.  When Hurricane Katrina hit, it took out a chunk of limbs along with the power lines and pulled it all down in the driveway.  Much of the tree was rotting and so, naturally, the best option was to take it down before it took out power lines again or a car.

I will forever miss that tree.  It looks and feels like a completely different yard — so desolate, so brightly lit.  I love my shade!  I love my trees!  Call me a tree hugger if you want.  I will not deny it.  God save the trees!!!

Still, as I mourn the loss of the tree, the view of the approaching storm is quite breathtaking.  The photo doesn’t do the sky justice.  The stormy blue was much darker to the eye and the shades of green more vibrant.

 

 

 

Are You Thankful or Are You Angry?

Colors and Light

Wow, I was so stinkin’ angry at God.  I yelled at him.  I cried.  I cursed.  I ignored him, because I felt he was ignoring me.  I told him, “You turned your back on me, so I’m doing the same to you.”  Then, I cried some more.

I prayed.  I asked for help.  I asked for more faith.  I asked for God to take away my fear, my doubt, my stress and worry.  All I could see was my loss, what I didn’t have.  I was more focused on what I needed and I was so desperate in that need that I could not see all that I did have, everything I should have been thanking God for.  But when you are in the midst of depression, despair, anger, bitterness, worry and fear, you can’t see the good stuff.  All you can see is darkness.  You can’t find much, if any light.  I’m so thankful for that sparklette of light I had that was holding me from going any deeper.

I kept praying constantly, after I gave in to ignoring God.  I kept praying for more faith than fear.  I knew I needed more faith than anything.  It took days.  It took weeks.  Sure, I’d go through anger again, crying, depression, doubt, but I kept praying and asking for more faith over fear.  A month went by.  More.  Then, something cool happened.

This peace come over me.  This peace made me feel like everything was going to be ok.  I felt like I handed over my anger and fear and doubt to God, finally.  I told him to take it from me, and to replace it with faith.  I knew more than anything I needed faith and patience.  Patience is a lesson I’ve never quite grabbed onto.  In fact, I downright suck at it.  This day came upon me and I woke up glad.  I started to think, “I have so much to be thankful for.  I am healthy.  My family is healthy.   I have the most awesome daughter in the entire world.  I have the most wonderful mother.  I have a home.  I have a car that runs.  Hallie goes to a great school.”  I kept on thinking of so many things I could be thankful for.

Then, I started to think what my loved ones must be going through.  I’ve been so focused on me and my selfish thoughts, poor me, my poor life …  What about them?

I’m sure Mama misses Daddy more than anyone and anything.  They were soul mates.  They had such a great love for each other.  Her heart must ache more during the holidays.  Daddy’s been watching over us from Heaven for 11 years now.  And Hallie?  I know how scared she must be with her knee surgery coming up after Christmas.  She’s so fearful, anxious and nervous.  I’ve been so selfish!  And my best friend, Jennefer, with her oldest off at college, and so many other friends who have needs and trials and I’ve been over here thinking “poor me.”  A friend told me once, “It ain’t all about you.”  One of the best things I ever heard.

I just wanted to take this time, here at Thanksgiving, to ask you – Are you thankful or are you angry?  There really isn’t enough room in your heart for both.  You just make up your mind to be one or the other, depending on where you choose to place focus.  You can sit around and have a pity party like I did, or you can write down every little thing and person and place that you are thankful for and then — well … you can be thankful.  I can nearly bet that you have more things to be thankful for in your life than things to be angry about.  And thankfulness is such a much better feeling to hold in your heart than anger and depression.

I want to take this time to say thank you, God and thank you, Jesus, for all you have given to us — more good things than we will ever deserve.  Please forgive us for our selfishness, for our anger, bitterness, depression and doubt.  All we have to do is let it go and give it to you, pray constantly, try to have faith, and wait on you, because it’s all in your time, not ours.  Thank you for all your many blessings.  Though we may not always see it, our cups runneth over.  I love you soooo much!

Finally! A Day Without Rain

Week 8 of 52

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It seems this is the first day I’ve noticed almost no clouds, mostly sunny and bright, and this puts a smile on my face! We’ve had way too much rain, and I believe the rest of this week will be clear. Here’s hopin’. Thought I might share our view on the way to taking Hallie to school this morning.
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Beautiful indeed.

I hope you have had a wonderful week. We have all been sick. Mama has been sick for 2 weeks with severe bronchitis, and has coughed so hard, she’s pulled or torn cartilage around her ribs. Hallie and I missed school and work last week. Not sure what we had, but sooo glad that’s over, except for the coughing, and that’s better, so I’ll take it. I sure hope you guys are well. Keep those germs away! Drink lots o’ water and orange juice and apple juice. Stay healthy.

I made that lentil soup and I love it! Hallie? Not so much. I will have to find some recipes that she likes. She wasn’t fond of the lentils. This was my first time making it. I should have taken a photo of that, since it turned out so pretty. The recipe made tons! I have Glad bowls full of the stuff in my freezer, so I’ll be living off soup for quite a while. 😉 The one good thing about being sick is the losing weight part, since I haven’t really been that hungry. Gotta look for that silver lining, right?

So, I’ve been doing well with the 101 Things in 1001 Days. Still not cussin’, and that’s sayin’ something. Perhaps I’ve taught myself a new healthy habit. Now if I can stop cussing in my mind. I’m tellin’ ya, the road rage really gets me! There are tons of stupid people out there. They don’t think they have to wait in line to turn left, so they just skip ahead of everyone and cut off the person that’s been waiting there to turn, as if this person does not have to wait. It really chaps my hide! I wanna smack some people upside the head sometimes. Seriously. I think it would make me feel better. 😉 I know you feel the same way. *grin*

Well, that’s really all I have. Way sleeeeepy. Not been taking many photos as we’ve been inside most of the time, trying to get better, plus it’s been raining most days. Looking soooo forward to some clear days and lots o’ sun!!! Bring it on!!! And looking forward to many great things happening this week for all of us!!!

Y’all have a wonderful and wacky Wednesday and a rockin’ rest of your week. I’m off to update my 101 List.

Prayer Requests:
(1) Please pray for Mama to hurry up and heal, get well, Bronchitis and all sickness and coughing GONE.
(2) For Patrick to find the woman of his dreams, fall in love and get married. Pray he finds her this year.

If you have a prayer request, please let me know.

Love ya! *smooch*

-Carol