Living the Adventure to Completion

boots

Buried deep within the caves

The recesses of my mind

Taken there by worn tired weathered leather

And antique sheets wrapped with twine

bookandtwine

 

Past the echoes and whispers

Through the dark twisted figures

Evermore deeper still toward the dark

Torment and fear churn and shiver

darkscary

 

Not turning to whence I came

Facing the struggle and climb

Promise beckoning me adventure on

Completing the trek is mine

the end

 

Searching For Her Beloved

She walked tirelessly

Until her feet bled

And then, she walked on

Ignoring the pain

She held on to the faith

She’d find her beloved

That belief is what sustained her

Through her hunger

Through her restlessness

Through the welcomed setting sun

As she knew with nightfall

She’d finally find rest

If only for a moment

Until the sun rose the next

__________

This is actually a line I just wrote today from my novel.  Listening to Earth Shadow by Deuter, I felt it sounded more like poetry than perhaps a line so felt the need to share.  If you are a writer reading this, always be on the lookout for inspirational music to play in the background, something new to you, something different.  You never know with what you may find your inspiration, no matter how blocked you think you may be at a given time.  Usually, I prefer to write in silence.  Sometimes, you have to change things up a bit.  Happy writing and/or creating and may inspiration and creativity flow to you, through you and onto whatever you choose as your canvas.

Hungry

Longing for the fruit

of creative genius

Longing for the meat

of unadorned freedom and time

Just one bite

of the unliven dream

I’m starving

on work and struggle alone

As I continue to hunger

for my adventure to begin

__________

Okay, so yes, I stole 5 minutes to write.  Yea me.

Camp Nano Washed Out

Well, technically, Camp didn’t wash out.  I did.  It’s not for a lack of trying, mind you.  I’ve had much on my plate with work, with running after Hallie and helping her (post-surgery), running after the animals, mowing and working in the yard, cooking, cleaning, washing, going to and fro physical therapy and the list goes on.

I did manage to scribble roughly 5,000 words, not quite reaching the goal I’d set for myself of 10,000.  BUT!  I am still squeezing in time to write, even if it’s for a measly 15-30 minutes a day.  Hey, something is better than nothing, right?  Right.

I sort of messed myself up a bit to be honest.  I started back on my work of non-fiction that I started in October of last year and it’s like I had to force myself and found it to be more of a chore than fun.  I cannot write like that.  It has to be fun.  Don’t misunderstand.  Sometimes you have to glue your butt to the chair or couch or bed or porch swing or wherever it is you want to write and actually put in the time to write.  Something.  Anything.  Just to get yourself started.

Write the voices that are talking (screaming) in your head

But to sit there in angst with 100 other thoughts running through your head of what you need or want to be doing rather than having the want to sit there and write.  Well…  I cannot write like that.  It has to be fun.  After you sit there and force yourself to write, if the imagination and words are not flowing by the end of the first 30 minutes, it’s not worth it.  So I pulled away and thought to myself, “Self, while I realize finishing this book is important, you have all these voices in your head screaming at you to work on their story.  How can you focus on something completely opposite when you have your fantastical characters screaming at you to write their story?  Writing is writing.  As long as you are writing, you’re getting the job done.  But you need to listen to those voices in your head.  Listen to them.  Write their story.”

Then, I had a dream, woke up at 0:dark:30 after the dream, couldn’t go back to sleep, got up out of bed and wrote.  It was an epiphany.  I have started books 1 and 2 in a series and this dream was the story before book 1.  A new twist!  Sort of like The Hobbit movie coming out after all the Lord of the Rings movies.  It’s the back story before the story.  So, I have to say, I was a bit psyched to get up oh so early to write out everything I could remember from the dream.  And it’s funny.  The more time I spent writing it, the more details sprang up and I started remembering more of the dream, the colors, the sounds in the background, the smells, the rooms and changing environments, the action, the drama, what the characters where saying and how they were saying them.  Writing is such a wonderful trip!!  Hearing, seeing, feeling and smelling the story in your mind and writing it out is like biting into a juicy sweet peach, breathing in that heavenly fresh summery fragrance, and having the nectar drip and run down your chin and arm while savoring every last delicious bite.

If you write at all, then be proud

If you did not reach your goal for Camp Nano, don’t beat yourself up about it.  If it got you started writing and you continue every day to write, then be proud.  The real goal here is to write, to create, to spill your soul or imagination or dreams onto paper or laptop or whatever the tool is of your choosing.  But to write.  That is the goal.  So do that.  And be pleased with yourself.  Someone said once, ‘it’s not the destination, it’s the journey.’  And that is a very true statement.  The journey is the fun part, the adventure and, sometimes, the distraction from real every day life.  It’s my means of escape, though I don’t escape for long, as I love my life and the people in it.  Still, a little mini-mental-vacation is always welcome.  To imagine worlds and stories in your mind — those are some of the best vacation adventures.

So, maybe I didn’t wash out.  I started.  I wrote.  I’m writing daily.  And I will finish it eventually.  And so will you.

And if you did reach your goal for Camp, I applaud you!!  And if you didn’t reach your goal, and, still, you wrote, I applaud you, as well!  Wooooo-hooooo!!!  *clap*clap*clap*clap*wolf whistle*  Whoop!  Whoop!!

Camp Nano April 2014

2014-Participant-Facebook-CoverMy apologies for missing so many days from my Reading the Bible in 365 Days and Bible study/blog.  I am planning to return either today or tomorrow.  Trying to finish up some work before I start a new chapter in my life.  Also, (and yes, I’m probably biting off a bit more than I can chew but now that’s not different from any other day is it?) I am joining in on this upcoming Camp Nanowrimo.

The first camp nano of the year begins April 1 and I have been completely missing my creative outlet.  I’ve been too busy working on everyone else’s projects but no time to work on my own since October or November, so on April 1, it will be back to me time.  Yay!  I don’t usually appreciate missing sleep but when it comes to something I’m excited about, it’s not a problem for me to get up at 3am or even 2:00 to start writing (are you like that?), coffee pumping intravenously and a granola bar on stand by.  So, it’s so great to have a couple of things in the works to be excited about!

I had been working on 2 different novels back in October/November:  1) my series – books 1 and 2 (sci-fi/fantasy/adventure) filled with a mixture of nonmagic folk, a magical realm, witches, vampires, a girl with unfathomable powers and unknown to her until a tragic series of events occur and the veil is torn between the magic and nonmagic worlds; and 2) a book on depression and God.

I had been drawn for months toward the nonfiction novel on depression and God but the more I talk to people about both, I’ve decided people are still not ready to deal with their depression.  They don’t want to honestly discuss it, like it’s taboo or something — at least the majority; some seem to think if they ignore it, it will go away; they certainly don’t want to read about it and many that are deeply depressed (as we all FEEL on different levels) don’t want to read about God.  Those people who say they do not suffer from depression but have people in their lives that do suffer — well, they try to just avoid those people altogether or deal with them if they don’t have a choice but are not that interested in reading to understand something that they feel might depress them.  I sense some underlying depression issues right there.  They don’t want to understand it.  So, I suppose until I figure I have a potentially larger readership for that particular novel, I will sit that on the back burner and work on the one that many have expressed more of an interest in.  It seems just about everyone I talk to has an interest in reading books comprised of magical/fantastical components; adventure; mystery/intrigue/suspense; tragedy, etc., so my fantasy series is the better option for now.

Camp Nano runs April 1 through 30.  I currently have over 51,000 words on book 1 and I’ve moved several chapters to book 2 but mostly, that’s just copied and pasted gobbledy goo.  I’m needing to revise book 1 and add 10,000-20,000 words to finish, I believe, or somewhere in there.  My goal is to spend Apr 1 & 2 revising and days 3-30 adding 10,000 plus words during camp and hopefully finishing book 1.  Then, May 1, begin the processes of revising again and again, polish, employ my beta readers while organizing my query letters and choosing which houses to submit to, consider opinions from betas, perhaps revise again, then submit queries and ultimately, publish.

What book would you find more interest in?

Are you participating in Camp Nano during April or maybe July?  If so, I hope to see you there.  Perhaps we can chat by the campfire with our s’mores and tell ghost stories.  😉  It’s not too late to join.  You can join anytime during the month of April by clicking here.

Drop me a comment.  I’d love to chat with you.